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the news. [23 Aug 2005|07:09pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | beating hearts baby :: head automatica ] my myspace is back. add it. link: http://www.myspace.com/2631592 <3heart. 1 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

[21 Aug 2005|09:49pm] [ mood | relieved ] [ music | beating hearts baby :: head automatica ] hello single life. i hope theres some damn good parties this weekend. i hvn't gone out and been truely single, no strings attached in almost 8 months. here we go. 2 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

Rip my heart vessel by vessel [21 Aug 2005|08:03am] [ mood | scared ] I need to be strong. Stronger than I've ever been. I need to bind myself in a dark whole. And it has to be far. It has to be so fucking far away from him that I will no longer be able to feel the selfishness he made up to look like love. Oh god, I need to fucking run. I need to run hard and far. Even if I come crashing down and gravel penetrates my body. It will be immensely worth it. Vulnerable was never even defined until he came into the picture. And my heart has never been taken advantage of so brutally until he faked 7 months and 7 days of honesty. A fleeting moment. Oh god, I hope that's all he is. I need to bind myself so fucking tightly that not the greatest of his lies will get in. Everything is so blurry and I can't wait until I'm free. He hangs me by a tiny thread and chuckles as he threatens to cut it as soon as it seems pleasurable to him. Go ahead. Take fucking pleasure in my agony. Then tell me that you love me, because that's what rubs you the right way today. I need to run. I need to run away from his night and day personality. I wish there was never.. I wish there was never a boy in my bed. An invader. So crucially placed. Placed there to tare my soul from the inside out. I can run though. I can patch myself up once again. Bind myself up in a tiny hole. Far far far so mother fucking far away from him. My body trembles in his absence but I know this is right. My body tells me he is a virus. A parasite. A mother fucking intruder that is here to burn and torture my existence. A cure. I pray for one. And I hope he dies. I hope he withers and melts. As we all know parasites do without their host. Searching for strength. He'll never kill me like this again. That's what I repeat, painfully, over and over in my head. Brainwashing myself. I can run. I hope a burst of strength within me carries me so far away that his existence will have been one of those memories much too hard to even remember. I've already forgotten what I've loved about this monster. I've already ripped him from my soul. I've already died 3 thousand times before. And all I want is to live free of his torturous presence. Run run run run run run run run run run run run run. 5 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

I'm crazy.. [20 Aug 2005|07:00pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | age of pamparius :: turbonegro ] no really, i have come to the conclusion that i am. i feel bad for my boyfriend. but hey at least i keep things interesting. last night i lost myself somewhere between the jose cuervo and a street called catlin. which i wish was more simply, just caitlin. i kind of feel like painting right now. which i haven't done in entirely too long. i started school monday. rediculous. i hate it already. went to the beach one day or another after school. took some car ride pictures. post them? why not, i say. one way or another i am here once again and a bigger mess than before. but that is neither here nor there, so enjoy. tootles. 2 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

Brand New [14 Aug 2005|04:11pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | Brand New ] happy 7 months to us. "i'm sinking like a stone in the sea. i'm burning like a bridge for your body." "he is the lamb.. ..she is the slaughter" "we're concentrating on falling apart. we were contenders. we're throwing the fight, but i just wanna believe in us." "i am heaven sent. don't you dare forget." my senior year starts tomorrow. disgusting. this summer blew. <3 14 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

[05 Aug 2005|12:22pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | bloc party ] well here are my classes as of now. but i'm going to try to get some of it switched (period wise). period 1 :: physiology (bryant,s) period 2 :: humanities (sharp,j) period 3 :: ceramics (parness,j) period 4 :: pe (harp,t) period 5 :: algebra II (shakib,m) homeroom :: pe (gunny,c) senior picture. not the cutest picture i've ever taken, but i'm over it. and last but most definitely not least my best friend, tasha, moves to long beach in 10 days. i love her and i am going to miss her so much. but i know she'll hv a blast and i can't wait to go visit her! love you, shien. 17 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

i can't think of a title. [28 Jul 2005|08:37am] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | sugar we're going down :: fall out boy ] cheyne&tionna part[one,billion] gogurts. tanorexia. hand sex. statuesque pose. leaning in for the wet one. love. so anyways, we're going to vegas this weekend. wedding chapel time! see ya when we get back!! (p.s. he got me the mariah carey and fall out boy cds. what a fun little best buy extravaganza! i love him!!) sincerely, [soon to be]mrs. cheyne patrick hannegan 16 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

beach. [25 Jul 2005|01:10pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | hot hot heat ] this weekend was pretty fun. watching cheyne's underground dodgeball competition was definitely a highlight. here are some pictures from the beach taken by tasha's digital. enjoy. dume. frits. [tasha's] tasha. starfish. cheyne. [mine] frits. [#2] dead sting ray. [smelt fanominal] my oh bebe &i. [lion hair; we're hot] you gotta love it. peace. 10 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

camera phone. [22 Jul 2005|09:06pm] [ mood | pumped ] [ music | mike jones :: back then ] it's all about the beach these days. &unmatching bathing suits. getting ready to go out right now. also waiting for the boyfriend to return from AA. cute. police kinda suck sometimes. just thought i'd put that out there. some people need to lay off the steroids. no seriously. especially the kind that like to beat up random girls. hah. well hopefully this weekend that wont happen. much love. p.s.[pictures]: quack. quack. i just joined emoclub. size 0. what what. &as shelly would say "dayummm girrrl, look at dem tittaaays!" =) 14 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

to that girl that IMd me &the other people who have been asking... [20 Jul 2005|02:54pm] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | mike jones ] "xoxSexyNFlyxox (10:30:09 AM): heyy, um i used to have a lj a loooong time ago & i came across yours again the other day, & i know it sounds weird but like i was wondering how you lost the weight you did, cuz im trying to lose some weight by the end of the summer...& your like gorgeous so i wanted ta know wat you did lol xoxSexyNFlyxox (10:33:09 AM): well youre idle & i gotta go, but if you like write wat you did on your lj or something i would appriciate it TONS....& how much did you lose in what amount of time??" ...in response: i'm not really sure who you are but um. i've lost like 17 lbs. took about two months. not really sure if i want to keep losing or not. just maintaining as of right now. and i lost it by eating about the equivalence of one meal broken up throughout the day[i.e. little snacks every few hrs and no eating late at night] and lots of water[no other drinks]. also, mostly just fruits and veggies. actually almost 100% fruits and veggies. anyways, good luck. 4 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

[19 Jul 2005|10:09am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | kelly clarkson :: behind these hazel eyes ] this has been a crazy week. absolutely insane. but i did go shopping yesterday which is good. the boyfriend is now carless, homeless &has to attend weekly AA meetings. guys beating up girls is cool now. my dog doesn't hv cancer, thank god. i hv senior pictures in like a day and no clue what to wear. (suggestions?) oh yeah, and tower 7 has been taken over by preteens. i really need a digital, donate one to me. no one knows what i look like anymore. oh oh and i got a toy dog from victoria's secret. its name is dicky dot. 12 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

boredum [09 Jul 2005|04:53pm] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | clarity :: in memory ] TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: Tionna Birthday: June 11, '88 Birthplace: CA Current Location: CA Eye Color: brown Hair Color: blonde Height: 5'8 Right Handed or Left Handed: right Your Heritage: german, french, dutch, italian, native american indian, russian, polish, english &spanish The Shoes You Wore Today: black flip flops Your Weakness: don't trust others easily Your Fears: being betrayed Your Perfect Pizza: just cheese Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: keep the weight of that i've lost Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: mhmm Thoughts First Waking Up: i miss cheyne Your Best Physical Feature: i really don't know.. i hv nice skin and eyes Your Bedtime: weekdays 10:30 weekends 2:00ish Your Most Missed Memory: hanging out with liv, she's been in FL forever Pepsi or Coke: coke MacDonalds or Burger King: burger king Single or Group Dates: single Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino Do you Smoke: no Do you Swear: yes Do you Sing: yes Do you Shower Daily: for the most part Have you Been in Love: i am Do you want to go to College: i do Do you want to get Married: yes Do you belive in yourself: most of the time Do you get Motion Sickness: yes Do you think you are Attractive: yes Are you a Health Freak: i am constantly on a diet, but most say i diet unhealthily. ? Do you get along with your Parents: we have our moments Do you like Thunderstorms: no Do you play an Instrument: not anymore In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes In the past month have you Smoked: no In the past month have you been on Drugs: no In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: nope In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes but the kind with just veggies In the past month have you been on Stage: no In the past month have you been Dumped: yes In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no Ever been Drunk: yes Ever been called a Tease: yes Ever been Beaten up: no, that's my job Ever Shoplifted: yes How do you want to Die: not alone What do you want to be when you Grow Up: succussful at whatever job i choose and a good mom/wife What country would you most like to Visit: africa In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: blue Favourite Hair Color: blonde Short or Long Hair: long Height: over 6 ft Weight: about 160 - 170 Best Clothing Style: surf bum vintage Number of Drugs I have taken: one Number of CDs I own: a billion Number of Piercings: two Number of Tattoos: one Number of things in my Past I Regret: one CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! p.s. i found out i hv strep throat today. hah my doctor said i've lost too much weight since my last visit. i said thank you. i never knew docotrs were so complimentary. send me get well cards sluts. 10 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

random thoughts. [08 Jul 2005|10:14pm] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | right side of the bed :: atreyu ] well i am sick as all fuck and not getting better. rediculous. i went and watched my husband at work today haha. he is adorable. happy birthday to carly. (sorry i couldn't make the dinner.) &two pounds away from my second goal. skinny skinny skinny. mwuahaha. shout outs to all you live journal lovers. we are most definitely making a come back. 4 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

my[iloveyou]. [06 Jul 2005|10:44pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | better together :: jack johnson ] 6 months in eight days. "There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard And no song that I could sing but I can try for your heart And our dreams and they are made out of real things Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart Like why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it’s so hard? It’s not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving I’ll tell you one thing, it’s always better when we’re together It’s always better when we’re together We’ll look at the stars when we’re together It’s always better when we’re together It’s always better when we’re together And all of these moments just might find their way into my dreams tonight But I know that they’ll be gone when the morning light sings Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see That they’ll be gone too, too many things I have to do But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene I’d be under the impression I was somewhere in between With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do Or places we got to be we’ll sit beneath the mango tree now It’s always better when we’re together We’re somewhere in between together Well it’s always better when we’re together It’s always better when we’re together I believe in memories they look so pretty when I sleep And when I wake up you look so [handsome] sleeping next to me But there is not enough time And there is no song I could sing And there is no combination of words I could say But I will still tell you one thing We’re better together" -Jack Johnson 13 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

i'm a liar [29 Jun 2005|11:47am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | we belong together :: mariah carey ] haha i said i was going to start using my journal again and i never did. well well well. maybe now that i hv anialated my myspace, i will hv more time for this little lover. i broke my digital camera, whom we all know is livejournal's best friend. but we all know i'm creative so i'll try to keep things interesting for my readers. love. 3 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

UPDATES... [08 Mar 2005|05:13pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | head automatica :: beating hearts baby ] I have an amazing boyfriend named Cheyne now. It'll be our 2 month on Monday. I broke my digital cam. I have gotten a piercing and a tattoo since I last used LJ. I suck at school. Going to 3 highschools wares you out. I have developed a love for Gin &Brandy. I got another Yorkie. Gaby. Riley. I don't take anti-depressants anymore. I am in love for the first time. I am happier than ever. &I can not fucking wait until Summer. This one's going to be good. And I love my friends more than everrr. heart<3 32 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

blahblah [07 Mar 2005|03:45pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | in memory :: if shadows wrote diaries ] i'm bored. i re-activated my account. i thought you could only do it after 30 days.. but i thought wrong, i suppose. myspace got trendy and boring so i thought i'd make a visit back to lj and see how it goes. comment, say hi.. what's new with everyone since i've been gone? 13 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

La Escuela [27 Sep 2004|05:11pm] So who goes to Granada? ..because I sure don't know.. and as of today that is the school I attend. Lucky #3 I hope? Peace 75 Salty Waves|Burned All The Wounds You Made

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